Suddenly I remember how Steve used to always show up at college to wait for shayee out of no reason, or sometimes popped up with a drink or something else. I just don't get how I don't deserve you to sacrifice any single thing. You're just always in your comfortable zone, never take ant risk for me. never.

You told me you're gonna stop working for a week because of me. B please. You told me at first you would be working until4th of Feb only. Secondly, why can't you just not tell me and just surprise me on the 9th by showing up or telling me that you're actually not working?

Just really kind of fed up with this relationship. It gets really really nothing and...just basically nothing.

People always say you must always give in a relationship. I always have been thinking what to make what to do and everything to surprise you. Always been thinking maybe some day I should make some little cards or bake something ad everything. I always think where shall we go and what kind of pictures we should take and what should we do. Seriously. I give. I give way too much. I gain nothing. I am ... mentally tired. I am not convinced that Its worth it you know darling?


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