明明你要的感情不是这样。明明他不愿意改变。难道你打算跟他吵一辈子？不累吗？

friendship love

I thank Choochoo for making me feel so loved. True carings. I can easily strongly feel by all the actions proven.

Ahyao as well <3

People say, "There are other fish in the sea." I say, "Fuck you, she was my sea." - J. Faulkner

If you're sensitive enough you'll get it.

Its been so long since everything felt so right, real, sincere, lovely.
Its been so long since I felt okay. :')


26April, 12:55am to 1:11am.

1她總是問：你在哪？你幹什麼呢？ （她很關心你，只是想跟你說說話，你不給她發信息，她很矛盾，怕你在忙，但又忍不住想你，換了別人，愛幹嘛幹嘛，她不關心，所以請你一有時間就問候她一下，讓她放心，讓她知道你心裡有她，她總是主動聯繫你，她會覺得她賤）
2她說：天冷了，記得多穿衣服~（不要嫌她煩，不要說她像你媽，你媽媽有時可能都比不上她對你的關心，換了別人，凍死也不關她的事，她知道你不傻，她只想讓你知道她心裡有你）
3她說：我不高興了（不要怪她無理取鬧，她不是真的不開心，只是想你了，只是
想要你幾句安慰的話，哪怕是：乖~別鬧了~）
4她總說自己又胖了或者長得不夠漂亮（不要覺得她嫉妒別人，她只是怕在你眼中不夠完美）
5她總說你看誰誰誰他們怎麼怎麼樣（不要說她貪慕虛榮，總羨慕別人，她只是想讓你知道怎樣做能使她高興）
6 她說你看誰多有錢，長得多帥（你不用生氣，在她眼裡，你是最好的，她只是想讓你為了她努力奮鬥）
7她不分場合的抱你，吻你（她不是炫耀什麼，只是想讓別人知道你倆有多好）
8她總說她會幫你，讓你有事找她（其實她知道她幫不了你什麼，她只想讓你知道你還有她，她永遠在你身邊陪你）
9 不論是過馬路還是走在哪，她用手死死拽住你的胳臂（不要說她粘人，她只是告訴你她信任你）
10她總是走在你的左邊（不要說她多事，她只是想離你的心更盡一些）
11她看到你跟別的女生親近一些就會生氣（別說她小氣，不信任你，她其實是在吃醋，這表示她十分在乎你）
12她愛憂傷，愛掉淚（別怪她多愁善感，她只是缺乏安全感，你要知道，她很少會為別人流淚）
13在買東西時她總徵求你的意見（別說她沒主見，依賴你，她只是尊重你，凡事以你為先）
14出去吃飯，她吃得很少說吃不了了，讓你替她吃（別說她挑食或者浪費，她只是怕你吃不飽）
15買東西她總買便宜的（別說她小氣，她只是想為你省錢）
16給你買東西，總買貴的（你可能不需要，不喜歡，但別怪她浪費，她只是想告訴你她可要把最好的留給你）
17跟你在一起總愛玩失蹤（別說她淘氣，嚇唬你，她只是愛看你急著找她的樣子，證明一​​下她對你來說是重要的）
18她說：如果你不要她，她就去死（不要說她威脅你，她只是告訴你，對她來說，你比一切都重要）
19她總假裝生氣轉身離開（記住，她不是真地想走，離開時想要被挽留）
20她會突然冷淡你，或向你撒嬌（別怪她孩子氣，她只是想讓你哄哄她）

mentally and physically tired.

曾经有两个男人，因为我心情不好，或不舒服，他们自动的为了我，而整晚不能睡。现在这个男孩，却相反，他睡的更香了。

Period cramp for the whole night. All alone. No mental support, no physical support. All alone

Maybe if we can all communicate a little better, we can finally get ourselves on the same page and, in turn, not end up in these consecutive tried-and-failed relationships.
I’d like to believe that through observing the relationships of my friends, engaging in several of my own relationships and trying to openly understand all different types of people and connections, I think I have a good grasp on what women truly want. However, I do not intend to offend any woman who may not agree. Here are four major needs that are general to all women:
We want to be wanted.
The feeling of someone yearning for us is a sense of power and strength that we may not even realize we crave. To be able to label another human being as “ours” and know that at the end of the day, no matter what happens, that person will always be on our side is an amazing feeling.
Not implying that we want to control our significant other, but it is the nurturer deep down within us that triggers this type of emotion. We like to be that person on the other end of the phone hearing about your day or the one you come to when you don’t know where else to turn.
Tell us your thoughts, dreams and aspirations, and it will not only bring us closer together, but also make the conversation flow more easily on both ends. Not to mention, you’ll be prominent on our minds.

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We want a friend.
Simply having someone to text, talk to or hang out with when we are sober means a lot to us. The physical aspect of a romantic relationship is always a necessity, but a relationship doesn’t really begin until people start listening to each other. Stop thinking that just because we are texting you all the time, we are ready to jump into bed.
Maybe we’re just bored and we want to tell you about how much our favorite baseball team sucks, how some horrible driver cut us off on the highway or just to gush about how cute the dog we saw on the street was. We’re not all ready to throw out the idea of a relationship at the onset of mutual attraction; so quit thinking with your d*cks and let it turn into whatever it may.
I mean, come on, why can’t we be friends first and foremost, either way?

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We want to feel special.
There is nothing worse than watching a woman throw herself at a man who clearly doesn’t give two sh*ts.
If a guy really loves a woman, he is going to let her know it. He’ll make her feel that love the ways he knows best: buy her flowers randomly (or an assortment of chocolates, cookies, ice cream), take her out to dinner, invite her to do fun activities, or propose any idea that gives him the opportunity to get to know her better.
A man can do something he likes and make a woman happy at the same time. Besides, in the end, both him and her have to like a variety of the same things in order to be compatible.
So men, do us all a favor: If you don’t feel the same way about a girl that she feels for you, don’t sit back and let her treat you like a king. Be honest with yourself and with her; you’re using a good woman, and you will only end up hurting her. Put yourself in her shoes. It is simply just wrong.
Some may say chivalry is dead, but karma is alive and well and she is a bad bitch. If you want a woman to treat you right, treat every woman you become involved with as you wish to be treated.

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We want you to be honest.
If you don’t have feelings for a woman — one who is pouring her heart and soul into your relationship — let her know it. Stop stringing her along like a doll. She is only human; thus, she will only act as her emotions tell her.
Women don’t need men as much as you think we do. If your feelings aren’t mutual, there is likely a man out there better suited for her than you. There are plenty of other fish in the sea; if you don’t see your relationship going any further, do her a favor and let it be known.
All men need to understand that not all women are going to be the crazy ex-girlfriend you can’t seem to shake. Every relationship is different; every love is different. Don’t judge a woman or a relationship before giving it a fair chance.
Take the time to truly get to know a woman. If it doesn’t work out, at least both of you took the time to try. In the end, you will have garnered an experience with a unique person and that makes for a fulfilling life.

x

Been watching lots of wedding proposal. Well, how good is it to have someone so into you. :')

No matter how strong I pretend on the outside, the moment you said you miss every moment of us, I teared.

nevermyturn

everyone is so lucky to have found someone who cares them wholly.

pathetic

my sleeping routine nowadays.

sleeping at 12am. waking up at 3 or 4 or 5.

couldn't sleep all the way. cry till i sleep again.

No matter how much you care, some people just don't care back.

Those who care will definitely make an effort no matter how hard it is, how impossible it is. So I shall just let things be. Thanks to the one who insisted to meet me immediately when I told her I wasn't okay. Blessed. :)

那個讓你流淚的
是你最愛的人

那個懂你眼淚的
是最愛你最心疼你的人

那個為你擦乾眼淚的
才是最後和你相守的人

,,

44. Yes, It’s true, it’s cute when guys show their emotions.

hmmmmmm

66. Act like a real boyfriend should in front of your friends. It DOES impress us. 

hmm..

58. Kissing us on the cheek randomly is really cute. 

hmmmmmm..

32. Hugs and kisses must be given at all times. 

such a speechless saturday

Thursday, we went to Taylor's and the girl said she can only give me my document on Friday. I have to work on Fridays so I told her I'll see when can I come. I got into the car. I told him. I asked what time he work on Sat. He said lets go take it on Sat.

Sat, we were on the car, at some point I found out we weren't even going to Taylor's. He asked, you still want to go Taylors? I said of course. I was thinking, hell yeah, thats the main point I am out today, my mum needs it urgently, he doesn't even understand any fucking thing. Being selfishly, he said, why can't you go next time? I stunned. Is this even my boyfriend? Is this even what a boyfriend should say? I promised my mum to get it, is he even in my position? Went quiet in the car. Used up only freaking 3 minutes to get that paper. Still quiet again. Went to Publika. He was trying to play acting with me, we were acting- friends. :)

Hey kid, driving up to KL another time wastes up time, wastes up money, its not even worth it. you know how to tell your brothers how he is wasteful if he works but you can't relate this theory into my situation. sometimes, i really wish to give you a handful claps, to show you how good you are in managing things. I said you are brainless cause you are truly lack of knowledge of managing things. and that explains, cause you're such a messy person. very selfish. you think its right, you do it. another day you don't want to do it, you just think about yourself, you just don't do it. you don't even want to know how it affects other people. you just change the plan yourself. thats how you roll. that explains. you're always like this. form my birthday in 2013. and all the last minute changes. I knew, you're a selfish person.

And you did a great job for really treating me like strangers though. I would never forget the moment where you just walked in front of me and we passed through the glass door. the door just closed. no one was there. i stunned again, are you even my boyfriend? reached my home. another interesting act from you. i really don't know what am i to you. do not say i keep saying things like that, cause thats how  i feel nowadays. what am i to you?

I was in love with a guy where I felt really insecure cause the relationship was being poured by violence, and everything. But then now I realised his motive, it was because of deep love, just that he used up the wrong way. 

I thought I would find someone better. someone who will make me feel less insecure. But it was totally a wrong misunderstanding. I am now with someone who doesn't know how to love. or maybe its just that he doesn't even  love me. too little love acts. the most effort he can do is to buy me stuff, and he think thats basically everything. someone, please tell him that he's too stupid for thinking that way?

just thinking about future, if we were to walk this adventure together longer. if we were watching drama. would you just lie with me just watch it or would you give me more love acts, hugs, kisses. if we were witnessing some beautiful scenery during our vacation. would you just stand beside me or would you give me more love acts. And he doesn't have to answer, I already know what he's gonna do. cause all he does is just being friend with me. just like how he does nowadays. 

he never feels heartache for me. all he does is to think for himself. he thinks he treats me the best, but he never tries to just walk in to my soul and see if thats something i want.

ever since when, i've started to just want to end this relationship. but things keep holding me back. i love him too much. letting go is never a good choice, i tell myself. 

but well, if he wants to, i could pretend that he never made promise of never breaking up with me. cause he's too childish to do these mature-guys-stuffs. i would let him end these. since he wants so badly. since there's nothing he can do in this relationship. since there's no more love acts in us. since we are going back to strangers from strangers. 

Saying you love me with that look in your eye
And that was a cold hearted lie

Your tender touch, a soft kiss
Two things about you I'll always miss

As I sit here thinking about you
My face is wet with tears past due;

I should've cried long time ago
But I loved you so

:')

你说把爱渐渐放下会走更远。

crying the companion. everyday, every night.

#thiscouldbeusbutyou'restupid.
#wedon'tbehavelikecoupls.
#iamgivingup
#notloved
#toolittleloveacts

You forgot that you were going to fetch me to Taylors today. You forgot. Why at the end I got treated like stranger? No holding hand. Not even touching me. No talking. Leaving me behind like a boss. Ignored me. Let the door to close right in front of me. Got me waited myself for the gate to open. Seriously? You do that when you're mad? You shouldn't, I tell you. F this relationship.

１.向新朋友介紹女友時，請摟著她的腰，而不是站在一旁用手指點
２.在街上遇見美女凝視時間不超過５秒，並迅速指出那位美女與她相比較的美 中不足。
３.如果她做錯了事，心裡已經很難過，請主動承擔起你應該甚至不應該承擔的責任吧 。
４.聽女友話的男人才會有出息，所以，你要乖乖聽她的話。
５.她可以欺負你，但你絕對不可以欺負她，因為她雖然欺負你,但是每次有什麼好東西,她第一個想到的就是你!
６.要是她朝你哭,你要不厭其煩地哄她,直到她破涕為笑！
７.把她的照片貼到錢包，手機…一切經常看到的地方。
８.離開她絕對不超過十天以上。
９.在她的朋友面前，希望你可以表現得比平時更疼愛她和緊張她的樣子。
１０.大男人不等於霸道。
１１.溫柔不等於沒主見。
１３.不要老是在我問她“去那比較好”，“吃什麼”等等的時候說"隨便"，這不等於是你在遷就她，只表示你沒有心思搭理她。
１４.要經常對她說"我愛你"，否則她會假設你不愛她。
１５.永遠不要在公眾場合對她呼呼吼吼又或是撇下她一人。
１６.她做錯事情的時候教訓她不要緊，最重要的是在那之後要哄她。
１７.發脾氣時不要不理她，不要給時間她讓她冷靜，其實她完全不需要時間冷靜
１８.可以陪自己的朋友，但一定要重色輕友。
１９.她看動畫片，你不但不准笑話她，還要跟她一起看。
２０.在她想你時，爭分奪秒地擠出時間與她約會。
２１.看她的眼神無比專注 。
２３.能做到客觀的得看到其他優秀的女孩，但主觀認為她才是最好的。
２４.有女孩和你說話，你要拉著她的手，如果她恰巧不在旁邊，那麼請你跟她們保持距離 。
２５.過馬路的時候牽著她的手。
２６.要懂得珍惜和她在一起的每分鐘 。
２７.就算再忙，每天都不忘打一個問候的電話 。
２８.要常常唱情歌給她聽。
２９.兩個人都有發火的權利，但不能同一天,如果那一天她發火了，那你就不可以發火了。
３０.女友生活中不順心，你要循循善誘、幫忙分析，提出建設性方案若干。
３１.要非常愛你的女友—她，堅決擁護女友的決定，服從女友的領導。
３３.即使全世界的人都不相信她，你也要無條件相信她。因為她也會同樣對你。
３４.她穿了好看的衣服，你要衷心讚美。
３７.與女友吵架每次陳述不得超過３分鐘（含），音量不得超過２０分貝（含）。
３８.要加強鍛煉，強健身體,一口氣抱她上到五樓
３９. 在她心情遭透，蠻橫發脾氣的時候，抱抱她，而不是和她理論。
４０.希望不會出現手機沒電而她又沒有其他辦法聯繫到你的現象，如果能頻頻主動打電話告訴她“我想你了”並隨時彙報行蹤則更好。
４２.女友不講理是撒嬌而不是撒野。
４３.她所有的事情都好想跟你分享、雖然你不一定會明白但是希望你會裝做你在聽。
４５.最重要的一點：要永遠認為女友是對的。因為，她是最愛你的。

Talking to you just makes me f-king cry. Too much excuses. Seriously big claps for you.

who got my back?

you said after may we'll have time. yeah. and just keep dragging things and making excuses. what if there's another case like MH370? Will you regret or what you've been doing to me?

i may seem really strong on the outside. but seriously when i am not ok i need a hug. atm i just have to realise i am just as weak as the other girls. but all you've been telling me is, omg don't cry be strong. you can do it. so who i am to open up to? do i just have to pretend even in front of you?

you said you feel bad for giving me so little time. On this saturday morning, both of us are free, yet you choose to sleep. sometimes i wonder why, why don't i deserve anything. yet other people get treated like princess. i wonder why, why people have beautiful love as seen in fairy tale, surprise pop up from the guy, surprise this and that, why am i alone, as if i am single.

Idk why, nowadays, what happen to me. We aren't arguing that much. Everything seems okay. But I just have the feeling to end this relationship, without a reason. Hmm.

The bracelet you got me, sadly the key was broken! :'(

我和她分手是因为这个。你也是吗？我后悔了，你呢？  

    她神经质她敏感多疑她阴晴不定 她在你面前总是哭 她总说她觉得你不爱她了。

你开始时还包容着她 让着她 哄着她 努力让她高兴起来

后来你累了 你不管她了 你放她一个人难过 等着她好了以后再跑来找你

再后来你烦了 你开始跟她发脾气 你开始在她闹的时候比她更生气的不理

你觉得这是理所当然的 是她一点一点把你变成这样的。

那你想过吗 是谁把她变成这样的。

你仔细想想

刚跟你在一起的时候 她是不是每天都是笑脸

刚跟你在一起的时候 她是不是从来不哭也不闹

刚跟你在一起的时候 她是不是像每个幸福的小女孩一样 幼稚的可爱。

你仔细想想

曾经你放弃过多少玩游戏的时间陪她说话 现在还剩多少

曾经你把她捧在手心里每天发几十条短信 现在还剩多少

曾经你一天不见她就会有永无止境的思念 现在还剩多少。

你仔细想想

你对她有过多少承诺 最后你没有做到

你对她有过多少保证 最后你让她失望

你对她答应过多少事 许下过多少永远 最后你自己都不记得了。

你厌倦了她的眼泪她的抱怨她的小脾气

你却不知道她承受了多少心如刀割的感觉

她以为你会永远像最初那样疼她宠她对她好啊

她就那么傻的把心给你了 任你捧在手里或者狠狠捏碎 你却总选了后者。

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你不明白 为什么你随便做点什么事她就生气了

你不明白 为什么她总是有那么多脾气 总是跟你吵架

你不明白 为什么一些看起来没什么的事 她却小题大做

你不明白 为什么她总是不开心 总是在哭。

你觉得开始有点烦她了

你开始越来越沉默 越来越跟她没话说了

你觉得她神经病 只想躲她远远的

你觉得你们的感情快走到尽头了。

可是你知道吗 每次她跟你吵架的时候她的心都好痛

你知道吗 她只是希望你能对她好一点而已了

你知道吗 她其实每次都以为你会哄她的你却一次次的让她绝望

你知道吗 在你觉得她变了变的你无法接受的同时 她也觉得你变了 但是她接受了

你还记得吗

你每次沉默不说话的时候 你身后的她表情有多难过多挣扎多不安

你每次说其实你很爱她的时候 她眼里有多少不确定却给了你那么多回应

你每次伤害了她对不起她的事的时候 她哭的多伤心多委屈最后还是原谅你了

她给了你那么那么多包容 那么那么多的爱

她给了你那么那么多期望 那么那么多的信任

你却残忍的让她一次又一次的心碎

你做过那么多过分的事她都没有想过离开你 那么让她闹一下又能怎样呢 况且她是真的无理吗。

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你嫌她总是查你的手机查你的聊天记录

你嫌她看到你和别的女孩说几句话就会又哭又闹又不理人

你嫌她管你管的太多太严让你失去了自由

你嫌她怎么这么罗里罗嗦又情绪化。

你觉得你做的那些事其实都没什么

你觉得你没有对不起她也没有招惹她

你觉得什么事都没有她就这样那样的闹了起来

你觉得她怎么这么讨人厌天天让你不顺心

可是这个世界上那么多人干嘛她就偏偏跟你这样了？

她为什么不去查别人

她为什么不去天天窥探别人的生活

她为什么不去跟别人发脾气不去跟别人“无理取闹”

还不是因为她在乎你

还不是因为她吃醋了想让你重视

还不是因为她怕一不小心你就跑了

还不是因为她怕只要她一放松 不安定的你就又不是她的了。

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你可以多想想她的好吗？

想想每次你生病了你难过了的时候 她比你还难受的样子

想想每次你们吵架之后她发给你的长长的短

想想每次她总是记得你们的每一个纪念日

想想每次她精心给你准备的礼物。

想想你曾经做过的混蛋事她竟然全都原谅了

想想你每次道歉了回头了她都还依然愿意陪着你

想想你提出的要求她全都一口答应然后尽力让你满意

想想你说想吃什么想做什么想去哪她每次都陪你尽管回家会挨说。

这不是她的职责她的任务

她跟你本没什么交集

只是因为她爱你 她爱了这样的你

就算你让她心碎过 她就是爱你 她愿意不顾一切的对你好。

这么爱你的她怎么会跟你无理取闹呢

就算你没意识到 可是真的是你让她难过了啊。

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她只是一个小女人 她不是超人

她脆弱她没有安全感也许有一天她也会累

她也不喜欢哭她也喜欢天天笑的很漂亮

她也不想低着头自己沉默。

她需要你的理解你的疼爱而不是冷漠

她把你当成她生活的重心她的世界只有你

她爱你她好爱你所以她才会因为你一点细小的变化而难过

她每天都在祈求你能多疼她一点却不敢跟你要求太多。

你真的希望她不再跟你闹了吗？

好的，等到她真的不在乎你了的那天。

你真的希望她再也不哭再也不动不动就生气了吗？

好的，等她真的被你伤透了麻木了的那天。

你真的在考虑要不要跟她分手了吗？

好的，祝你在很久很久以后的某一天，不要后悔。