I was in love with a guy where I felt really insecure cause the relationship was being poured by violence, and everything. But then now I realised his motive, it was because of deep love, just that he used up the wrong way. 

I thought I would find someone better. someone who will make me feel less insecure. But it was totally a wrong misunderstanding. I am now with someone who doesn't know how to love. or maybe its just that he doesn't even  love me. too little love acts. the most effort he can do is to buy me stuff, and he think thats basically everything. someone, please tell him that he's too stupid for thinking that way?

just thinking about future, if we were to walk this adventure together longer. if we were watching drama. would you just lie with me just watch it or would you give me more love acts, hugs, kisses. if we were witnessing some beautiful scenery during our vacation. would you just stand beside me or would you give me more love acts. And he doesn't have to answer, I already know what he's gonna do. cause all he does is just being friend with me. just like how he does nowadays. 

he never feels heartache for me. all he does is to think for himself. he thinks he treats me the best, but he never tries to just walk in to my soul and see if thats something i want.

ever since when, i've started to just want to end this relationship. but things keep holding me back. i love him too much. letting go is never a good choice, i tell myself. 

but well, if he wants to, i could pretend that he never made promise of never breaking up with me. cause he's too childish to do these mature-guys-stuffs. i would let him end these. since he wants so badly. since there's nothing he can do in this relationship. since there's no more love acts in us. since we are going back to strangers from strangers.