such a speechless saturday

Thursday, we went to Taylor's and the girl said she can only give me my document on Friday. I have to work on Fridays so I told her I'll see when can I come. I got into the car. I told him. I asked what time he work on Sat. He said lets go take it on Sat.

Sat, we were on the car, at some point I found out we weren't even going to Taylor's. He asked, you still want to go Taylors? I said of course. I was thinking, hell yeah, thats the main point I am out today, my mum needs it urgently, he doesn't even understand any fucking thing. Being selfishly, he said, why can't you go next time? I stunned. Is this even my boyfriend? Is this even what a boyfriend should say? I promised my mum to get it, is he even in my position? Went quiet in the car. Used up only freaking 3 minutes to get that paper. Still quiet again. Went to Publika. He was trying to play acting with me, we were acting- friends. :)

Hey kid, driving up to KL another time wastes up time, wastes up money, its not even worth it. you know how to tell your brothers how he is wasteful if he works but you can't relate this theory into my situation. sometimes, i really wish to give you a handful claps, to show you how good you are in managing things. I said you are brainless cause you are truly lack of knowledge of managing things. and that explains, cause you're such a messy person. very selfish. you think its right, you do it. another day you don't want to do it, you just think about yourself, you just don't do it. you don't even want to know how it affects other people. you just change the plan yourself. thats how you roll. that explains. you're always like this. form my birthday in 2013. and all the last minute changes. I knew, you're a selfish person.

And you did a great job for really treating me like strangers though. I would never forget the moment where you just walked in front of me and we passed through the glass door. the door just closed. no one was there. i stunned again, are you even my boyfriend? reached my home. another interesting act from you. i really don't know what am i to you. do not say i keep saying things like that, cause thats how  i feel nowadays. what am i to you?